Magic...

Too many outings i had the last week, and so i decided to stay home and do something useful during the weekends and then i regretted as it was so boring. Yups, i got some reading done, cleaned my room, and loads of net surfing. So, i had loads and loads of time for myself. I was just thinking what i really need at the moment. I just figured the fragrance i need to my life is a little magic. Has been some time i was blessed by a wand to a magical moment. When i say magic, it is not literally an angel or cupid flying above my head with a sparkling wand granting all my wish. No, no...Its something which would make you smile for the moment, makes you feel its all worth it, makes you feel special... Rather it be the addition of a tiny member to my family, bumping into a childhood friend, meeting my childhood sweetheart, smile of a stranger from my dream, or just a simple hug from my grandmum... these are the small things i call magic. Sometimes, we all are stuck in time machine where we have to race in a fast moving world. When u get tired, need a break, a lil' sprinkle of water, all we actually need is little magic. A year back, i met my childhood friend whom i havent met for about 10 years now, and we became so close that i didnt actually regret for not meeting her all these time, the joy i had, the smile she brought to my face, the grand-surprise God granted me, the love she still holds from the last time we met, its all worth the wait. This is what i call MAGIC. My lil' cousin who was came to our family months back, her tiny fingers touching against my face, the way she smiles in her sleep, the grip she had to my index finger, the baby smell she had on her skin...Thats definately MAGIC. You may say you've grown out of believing in magic, if you sre still waiting for the one to come, then you are waiting for a MAGIC to happen. If you see a shooting star and silently close your eyes and make a wish, you so believe in MAGIC. If you still make a wish before blowing your candles, you believe in MAGIC. These are the very usual things which makes an unusual mark to our soul. We all hold on to the most ridiculous, unbelievable, crazy habits and thoughts but again that's what keep us going. So, believe in magic...Dream all you want...Live every moment of today..."Dream as if you are gonna live forever, Live like you are gonna die tomorrow".

So when am i gonna get a little MAGIC? That is the question we all have at the end of the day isnt? The never-ending question!!

Wanted ...a must watch!

WANTED!!! is the movie i've waited excitedly and wanted to watch eversince i saw it on trailers. Last friday, I watched it with my friend, Ad. One word --- AWESOME. Beyond logic, its just great. The reason i said beyond logic is that, some hmmm actually most of the scenes in the movie is way off-limit when it comes to logic and reality. But again, we all need a break from reality check. This is one movie you SHOULD watch. A movie, potraying assasins who kills the guilty ones based on the list created by The Fraternity thousand years back. The list is basically coded in binary numbers on the witted cloth. Angelina Jolie plays Fox a senior assasin who doesnt question or thinks twice to perform her duty, as she herself was haunted by a dark secret. Morgan Freeman(Sloan) is the enigmatic boss who traslates the binary code and distributes the duty list. James McAvoy is Wesley Gibson, a the typical, pathetic accountant manager who dies for a change. His long lost father, as told by the chief assasin is the man who dies at the beginning of the movie (that was soooo Matrix and coool). After joining the The Fraternity he discovers his immortal powers dealing with weapons and mind control. Once inside The Fraternity, he finds out Sloan's bitter secret in the hardest way possible. Now he is all alone. What happens next is the part u should watch... the unpredictable plot twist, the heart-thundering graphics, the curving and flying bullets thoughout the movie is all too great to miss. Angelina Jolie is as usual hot and sexy. James McAvoy is hot topless, im telling u, he has a great body. As for Morgan Freeman, he did his usual thing in bringing up the story with comedy touch here and there. For those people not knowing what to do on the weekeneds, those adventure-action lovers, GO FOR THE MOVIE. Its worth every single penny. Rather it be for the whoa story, or the graphic or the comedy touch, or the action, or the plot twist, or for angelina jolie's typical spy character, or for the McAvoy's sudden change of character, or Freeman's serious, comedy dialogues..i'd give a 4 to 4.5 rating. 3 words - Worth the Wait...

A New Point of View...

There is a saying which says "You must emerge yourself into other worlds in order to understand yours". I mean i knew this before just never quite understood. Well, now i do. The thing is we all draw an imaginary line around us and think thats our world...Thats so not it. Im telling you this because i was that person too. So, be yourself, reveal the child in you, step out of this circle, dont need to grow that fast...There will be a point where you NEED to grow, just not now. Go out there, do the things u never thought u'd do...Embarass yourself, Scream your lungs out from a high building (i've done this and it feels good), Lie down on the road and count the stars, sing out aloud even though u suck(u sing coz u want too, u dont have to be good), dance all the time(who cares what the person next to u thinks,he doesnt have a life), slide in shopping malls, skate once in a while, play basketball ( u dont have to follow the rules), have a stay over and gossip bout the losers you fell for (if you arent with them at the moment, gosh he must be gay or just too ugly for u), eat ice cream at 1 am, get wet in the rain, go to the next room and irritate your sibling....do whatever you feel like at the moment...As you do all the crazy things, you tend to realise who you really are rather than who you are trying to be. You have a lifetime to pretend, hmmmm, to be yourself, just now when u r surrounded with crazy friends who wouldnt judge you.... So, go out there, and live at the moment as the next moment will remain unsure...

As for my day, it was superb...gets better and better. Well we had our Latin dance class, and whoa it was kinda fun. The way we go "cha cha" ignoring the beat and then stop and start again and then we miss the beat again, its all like so perfectly imperfect (ermm, perfect moment with imperfection). Have you ever realised how boring our life would be if everyone is perfect? For one, we'll have no one to laugh at...Secondly, we'll wake up everyday to compete for the first place...Thank god no one's perfect. I danced with Foo Pun and he was good...i mean of coz we screw up like all the time but since we messed up together, we ignored each other s mistake and it turned out to be good. Ohh, since there were only 4 guys, we kinda rotated our partners and of coz some girls have to be 'guys' and i danced with Karmy and Ad which was so kinda cool coz we get to do both guys and girls step...

We all have people we love and people we dont love so much(this is where your least fav people go). When something's bothering the people we love, it gets us...Well thats kinda normal. But what stroke me was when something disheartening happens to the people we dont exactly love, it gets us too and we somehow without us realising take a sec off to pray for their goodness. So, world isnt so crude, as humanity lies in each and all of us, just seen in times of sorrow only. We all care about everyone (the ones we love and hate), just not always i guess. Someone said "A lil' bit of humanity dies with every tear". I'm not buying it...coz everytime a person's eye tear, there is another pair of eye tearing feeling the pain of that person and very oftenly we cry for other people rather than for ourselves...

Yeap Polly, no more emo moment...Its gonna be either good day or not so good day as Su ann said...A new point of view....Wheeeee

Dance Dance...

Its kinda weird how everytime i wanna let go of something, there comes faith pushing me back to the very circle i wanna step out of. Well, thats destiny i guess... Sometimes, letting go is harder and needs far more strength than to hold on.

Again the boring lectures, well just this time, it is negatively improved to boring and lame lecture. My one hour class seemed like a forever..he and his lame jokes ( this is where im crossing my finger MrB doesnt read my blog)...my god,its so lame, my eyes tear. And there we were, flipping our notes checking for the number of slides left and estimating how long will it take for him to finish. Oh yeah, the one this i can remember from my lecture note is the "Reverse Robin Hood" theory, which was btw pretty lame but well on the bright side i dont think i can ever forget that bit.

Oh ya, during lunch we were talking about how anaesthesia sometimes doesnt entirely work during surgery. As in, it works enough to numb your whole body and muscles so u cant move but not enough as u can actually FEEL the pain and sometimes can hear what the doctors are talking bout. Sometimes the doctors do not realise that u arent actually sedated properly and continue the operation, thats when HELL comes in. Your are actually lying on the operation bed partially AWAKE and screaming ur lungs out that its painful and ur voice is not heard. You cant move remember? You cant move your mouth muscles to tell the docs that u r AWAKE, you cant move or wince to show that u r AWAKE, you cant open your eyes to indicate that you are AWAKE...only ine choice left, pray hard you dont die of pain as the success of the operation is no longer the priority. what's worse is if something happens during the surgery, you can actually see the light of heaven before you reach it *touchwood* ( although this rarely happens). Ahhhhh.. pretty creepy isnt? well, take care of yourself, dont let yourself into the operation theatre unless you are the one who is holding the surgery knife...

Our lab today was kinda cool...for we learnt bout the labelling and there we were labelling all the crappy stuff like Patient's Name : Brad Pitt; and Physician Name: Angelina Jolie. Still keeping the labels.In fact, i think i'll take a picture and display it soon, just not now...Too tired to do anything. Well, y tired? We r back on action...We're gonna perform Bhangra Dance for the BPharm orientation again...Wheeeee. And im all excited. Hello, a dance in between, those boring lectures and torture is like oasis in a desert, ok? So i have all the reasons to feel happy. Well, well, what excites me more is that Polly is dancing too...Yay! and the best part, she learnt the steps faster than i did the previous time. The funniest part of the whole dance is Raj, our choreographer and an excellent dancer. All his funny action and weird, random moves which makes us go like "is that humanly possible"...The classic partners, devi and giri (he is the only one who can match her height), raj and darsh (she is the only one who can keep up with his pace) b and of coz siva and i (the best la ryte...after all im there...lolz). all other partners have changed; Polly with Brandon...and Pri pri is with 'ahem ahem'(this is what i call destiny). Well, well..thats why im so tired...my eyes are barely opened, so guess i'll go and sleep for a while before i wake up and watch The Nanny Diaries ( yesh Karmi, its a 2007 movie, they are repeating the movie..explains how u'd already watched it)...It was a good day...

Fussypot...

My friends are all complaining that my peoms are very difficult to understand... So, i just thought of a poem my friend, Wenny wrote when she was a kid. And i thought for a kid, that was really good...and trust me, after this u'll never forget it...

"Fussypot, fussypot,Are you a pot?
Cooking so hot.
What have you got?In your big, hot pot?
Just some oats, and a big fat goat. "

How many of us can actually write like that when we're 5 ryte? So, the next time, u r having a bad day or some hard fall and need to take ur mind off something disturbing...here u go...a poem to make u laugh which can get u back to level...

Anyway, im taking a rest from all poems for a while...My friends are getting annoyed i guess...We had back to back Drug&Disease CardioVascularClass today which is very painful and torturing...I am telling u this because its bad that the subject is already damn boring, there goes my lecturer rubbing it on. As much as i respect her and her knowledge, she has an extraordinary ability to put us back to sleep. I always thot that some drugs upon consumption makes us sleepy and dizzy but trust me, beyond that, just the talk bout drugs are enough to make us sleep...

We had great lunch...and great talk during lunch-bout how we dont wanna die a virgin. My friend is paranoid that she is gonna die a virgin..So there we were telling her that its not gonna happen. No ones to die a virgin ryte? At least i dont want to...so im taking a vow, if im to die tomorrow, ill go and have sex with someone before i die...after all we are gonna die ryte...Experience everything before u go la ryte? I dont want to have a restless soul loitering around...

Whats worse is i think im having insomia or simply its the coffee i take. i take so much of coffee that i shud be immune to it by now,it doesnt make sense. I cant bring myself to sleep anytime before 4a.m. and i keep waking up before 8a.m. This is insomia ryte? Its kinda weird coz' i ve always embraced my art of sleeping at any time, any place...Its like something is bothering me but have got no idea what the heck is that. Arghhh, annoying. Or im like owl, nocturnal...Sleep during the day and active during the nite... Or the better theory is my holiday season, as i use to watch movie till 3am for 1 month... Watever it is, it has to go. Not healthy...

Fall, Rise and Race

It has been a very emo-ish week for me...does that word even exist, well lets just pretend it does ok? But, life is a balance. Good and evil comes equally. Reminds me of what a friend told me, " difficulities does not come to destroy u, as it comes to show u your actual potential. Show difficulities that you are difficult". One of the best ways to let go of your emotion is by writing, so there i was writing everything which came to my mind at the moment. All the clouds of confusion, accumulation of rage, distraction, all the words i saved in my heart. We all have those days ryte? Our emo period!!! Some of my friends understands what they mean, for the rest, it shall remain as unsolved puzzle.

The best part of life is, we have someone to hold on during our rough days, someone to pull us out when we are stuck in quicksand. For He created 6 billion people and sometimes all we need is that one person who is willing to listen. We may have hundreds of them laughing as we're laughing, all we need sometimes is that one person who is willing to cry with us...that one person to hold your hands to move to morrow. We keep thinking about the people who left us, who walked away, who passed by without a single look, but often forget about those who stand right in front of us holding a box of tissue, a dvd and popcorn in case you need em'... "Dont you cry over people who became your past, there is a reason they did not make it to your present"

The reason why i am writing this is because we all have those days where we dont know where to go....what to do...who to talk...how to take the next step...when to move...not knowing which way to go next, don't be lost, don't stay down, you don't have to take a step backward...stand there and call a friend...True friends are seen in times of need. We all have them, just never used them enough to see them. Dreams may never come true until you have someone to share them with. Everyone needs a friend, a shoulder to lean on, hands to grip as we fall, and someone to raise us up when we do fall, as life is a case where you fall, rise and race....

No one’s ever perfect,
We all lie and act,
Mistakes are made to learn,
Difficulties don’t come to burn,
We all fall again and again,
Holding the scar and pain,
Until the rainy days are seen,
To the most beautiful day that have ever been….

We all have the day,
The day which kept us away,
From standing up after a hard fall,
But, we still have someone to call,
To raise us up, To empty the cup,
Wipe away the tear, To protect us from fear,
Getting us back into the race,
In the fastest ever pace,
Life never push us down,
Everyday, a new you is born….

The next time you are hurt,
Find the courage to become the first,
Coz’ life is a case,
Where you fall, rise and race…

-MK-

Fitting in...Standing out

"Looking into someone's eye,
Can you tell that they lie,
About who they are inside,
Are they dull or bright...

The mask we all wear,
The lies we all share,
It's all a huge mistake,
Putting truth on the stake...

Why pretend we're perfect,
When we know we are not,
To fit in we all put an act,
For its far better to stand out...

To get a friend,
We all bow and bend,
Not knowing who friends really are,
The ones who make you touch the star...

But we prefer the fake,
And we do whatever it take,
To get ourselves into the circle,
Just to laugh and giggle...

Not seeing who was really there,
Those who'd love and care,
The people we rank last,
When they should be the very first...

I made that mistake too,
Not knowing what to do,
I'm writing this now,
Coz' i owe a bow,
To the old friends i forgot,
To the people i've ignored,
The beautiful hearts i've burnt,
Coz' now i've learnt...
I've been rude and bitter,
But now i know better..."
I'm out of the game,
I wanna be who i really am...
-MK-

Love is eternal...

Love is eternal some say,
Its true in a way,
Walking away seem so easy for you,
Why not for me...
As you say goodbye,
Why are there sharp pangs in my heart,
Why are there words throbbing my throat,
Why is the fear suffocating my mind...
As tears run down my cheeks,
Why is there only loneliness,
Just the shadow of sorrow,
No heart to borrow...
Unkept promises,
Unshared doubts,
Unsaid words,
Capping me from inside,
To say that love is eternal...
So is the pain within---
-MK-

Time's up

There was a time when you made my heart so light,

It made me fly so high,

Now u are just another burden,

To say goodbye ---

There was once you made me believe in fairy tales,

That was a perfect fantasy,

Now, its all a huge fail,

Makes my like so messy ---

The time is up,

Cant waste my life, u see,

Over something which was...

Never meant to be---

Time's already up,

To move on,

You are just another picture,

Which was never meant to be taken---

Time's finally up,

To say goodbye,

i will have to try,

Because...

The time is up----

-MK-

Memories Fade...Eventually...

I thought it would be easy,
But, its driving me crazy,
To know how wrong was i,
Everytime you pass by,
It makes me wanna cry,
Thinking bout what we could have been,
The miracle which will remain unseen...

I'm gonna do watever it takes now,
To take u off my mind,
For my love for you was so true,
Despite the chances you blew,
I too can be over you...

All the words we spoke,
The memories we created,
The moments we shared,
Its all fading away,
It will soon be gone,
Before the night ends,
And when u want me there,
Baby, i'll be long gone...
-MK-

Just another drama!

I can say that this last 24 hours is my peak hours filled with drama and more drama. Too many things happened in such a short time and it takes me more courage than i already have to face em' all at once. What they say...This too shall pass. Just as i was thinking the day cant get any better...the next moment everythings gets upside down, breaking the hope said.



What hurts the most is when i exect this particular person to be my best friend and understands me when i needed her to, she screws up. The least i deserve is a confrontation, if all these years of frenship dont even worth a simple confrontation, then what the hell was i doing all these while. If i could i would have made it better, if i could turn back the time, i'd do it all over again. its just too weird how a person can change in matter of days...now im the best friend and when things turn out wrong, im in the blame. Whatever happen to mutual responsiblity?! It is hardly my fault...All the lies and hiding...Y am i the blame? I deserve better, i know i deserve better. All i need is a friend to listen what really happen. Every coin has two sides, so does every story...



And then of coz, there was a date... the classic type-movie and late lunch at burger king. Then, loads and loads of stories. The best part was...he is my sisters friend and the mutual thing we had was my sister and DUH we were talking about her. But the only message my sis sent both of us was never to talk bout her, and dat was one thing we did the whole day. And then as usual there was misunderstanding and confusions and i screwed up big time coz my smart sister din tell me she got an Adidas bag and the worse part she din get me one...Arghhh!!! But, the outing werent so bad la...it was nice...



Then to equalise things, two of my frens met with accidents with very minor injuries. thank god..Praise the Lord for His mercy! Just as i was getting over the trauma and shock, i recieved news from another fren that someone broke in her house. Now her whole family is having sleepless nites. Sad ryte? Well i hope she gets everything under control.



Awhhh,one of my very close friends did a soft toy kinda key chain for me...And it was so cute and the best part its my favourite black and white, shape of a sushi, i dont exactly like sushi, but it was so fluffy and nice. Very very thotful of her isnt? Wat upsets me is im never gna be able to give her something i did coz either its gonna turn out real bad or it will be incomplete. Not a handy man. Well, thank you...Love u,Panda. I'll keep it very close to my heart...



See, when i said my life was a drama, i meant it...a mixture of good and bad things. Yin and yang people say...Life is a balance. just have to remember, when u face difficulities, it doesnt come to destroy you but to show u your real strength. There is only one thing you can do, show difficulities that you are difficult. We all fall all the time, so long you have the courage to stand up again and race, then you just won a race...



My take home message forthe day was....

• World is too dangerous for anything but truth
  
• At the end of the day, what hurts the most is not the words of our enemy but the silence of our friends

Prince Charming....

You know how we all use to dream and talk in circles bout our dream guy. I remember when i use to say that i believe in prince charming on a white horse. Actually, some part of me, deep inside, layers and layers beneath, i still do believe in that. Then there is true love, and love at first sight--use to be so happy and carefree, not worrying bout what people think...Brings me back to the memory lane. Awhhhh, i miss my high school days.

"Thinking bout what has been,
Talking to friends when i was a teen,
The dream guy on my mind,
Who is sweet and kind...

The kinda look,
Which is worth the time took,
Tall, dark and handsome, i say,
Thoughts which makes my day...

The beautiful smile,
The unbelievable style,
The flawless walk,
The way he talk...

The kinda guy I neva get bored of,
Attracts me with just a cough,
The sparkling brown eye,
Makes me wanna sigh...

Only if my dream comes true,
All my favourite things bout you,
All the small things,
Which makes me wanna sing...

Let's ride on a memorable sail,
Just like a fairy tale,
To the future we see,
Just u and me...."
-MK-

I still do believe in dream come true, fairy tales, prince charming, true love, just that i dont know if i believed as much i use to. But again, we need some kinda fantasy to keep us going ryte?!! I still remember when i wrote this poem, it was when i saw this guy when i was having lunch with my DAD!!! The perfect dream guy material and i had to be there with my dad...talk bout luck la ryte. That guy...ahhhhh.

My Perfect World....

Looking back the roads i've taken and the paths i've chose in life, from what degree course shud i take to who i shud bring as my date to high school prom... its just too perfect and of coz the credit goes to my parents, relative and friends. The reason why i think i had the guts to step that one step forward is because i know that if i fall, the are people or at least one person to lift me up again and keep kicking my ass so that i keep moving forward. I wouldnt say that my life is pefect, but at least there are perfect moments to make me smile during my dark hours.
People come from all walks of color. Trust me, when i say color, i am not being a racist. Color as in how people act towards another being. Looking out my apartment window, as far as my eyes bring me, the world seem so perfect. But the very next morning, the headlines just rip this thought off my head and makes me think the exact opposite. Murder, accidents, rape, kidnapping, incest, suicide, robbery...what hurts the most is that my perfect world seem perfectly fake. How many of us ladies can actually walk in the basement carpark of a shopping mall alone without being extra cautious? We all use to be scared of boggie man, ghosts, and spirits which may or may not exist in the first place, but looking around the only thing we really need to be afraid of is the man standing next to you---who might be a serial killer....It is good to be careful, not frightened all the time....in the lift, in the carpark, in the lrt, in the bus-stop, in the train station, in the 5 hour journey bus, in the public toilet, while we're walking on the pavement, in the cab, in our own apartment. If we all cared just a little more, we could make a change, even if its a small change, it might make someone smile. In the world so cruel, the small thing we can do for each other is feeding a smile once in a while....Reminds me of Nickelback's "If Everyone Cared".

" Funny how cruel the world could be,
More than what we can just see,
Here we are joking and laughing,
Not seeing miles away someone is crying...

We all think we are the shining star,
Not knowing how tiny we really are,
Forgetting where we came from,
Till we are struck by a big storm...

There we go judging people we dont even know,
Putting ourselves in a position so low,
Not seeing how much a heart can break,
Putting humanity on the stack...

Looking outside the window,
I realise the chance i blew,
The guilt eating me from inside,
Not being able to turn on the light...

When i look myself into the mirror,
I dont wanna see a terror,
I wanna see the person i truly am,
Not the mask of shame..."
-MK-

My Sister...My Guardian...

My second blog for the day...See the thing is, since i wrote about my friends, my sister asked me to write about her. What the hell was she thinking la ryte? How can i or anyone write anything nice about their siblings la ryte? Against the Nature of Sisterhood, im actually gna say something nice here... i have the best sister ever. She annoys me, irritates me, makes me wanna bang my head on the wall, scream my lungs out, but again, she'd probably the very first person i will turn to when i need to talk.

" You get into my nerves,

It is so ridiculous,

How you get me into trouble,

Popping up the bubble,

Without a second of guilt,

And you never quit...

I cried whenever you are near,

But, behing my every tear,

Layers and layers beneath,

Of your every breath,

I know that there's a part of you,

Wanting me to be safe...

You have never fail to lie,

Hiding the truth which will never die,

Keeping the truth from me,

Will not change how we should be...

You protected me from cruelity,

You kept me from losing my sanity,

You cared about my feelings,

And i'm glad we're siblings......"

-MK-

This is something i wrote when i was really angry at my sis for some reason which i obviously cant remember. We fight for like so many reasons, i need a specially modified brain to remember it all, but none of it lasted anything more than an hour. Even when i am pissed at her, its just impossible to ignore all the things she'd done for me and all the things i know she would do to keep me safe. Its just impossible to imagine a life without her...my life would be so empty. There a two halves of every person, one always wanting to be protected, the rest is to protect others. This is just the first half of me, the other is my lil' sister whom ive always looked after.

Colours of My Day!!!!

Hey,
Im totally new at blogging, always thot this was dumb but i promised a housemate of mine that i'll try it myself before i actually judge.So here i am....
To start things of, ill just start with my uni friends whom i call my best friends. I use to be so normal until i met these crazy ppl. Well, well what they say - same spesies stick together. The reason why im starting my blog particularly bout this 5 people is because they literally make my uni life a little tolerable. It takes a life-long experience in friendship before u cud actually judge them. So im no where close judging my frens, these are the little things i actually learned bout them in this short time knwing them.

Let me just start of with Amanda....
I officially christened her as "Panda bear"- this just popped out of my mind looking at her hairstyle somewhere last sem and she seemed to be accepting it pretty well so thats how it all started. One thing i truly love and hate about panda bear is she is brutally honest bout everything, to put it in easy words, she is a bad bad liar. So, if i need to knw what my bf is like or if my prom dress is nice or how is my new hair-do, this is the girl i will go to. Panda is very particular about tidiness, and a very organised person. Yea, i knw it annoys most of us sometimes but again what wud i do without her. She is always my partner in labs and im glad that she is. I can count on her not to screw things up, thats how careful she is. All the apparatus will be on line, books will all be stacked up nicely at the side bench, results will be written in the most neatest way possible-there will be no confusion at all. im telling u this because being me, i need someone like her to get me back into line. SHE KICKS ASS!!!! She is the mother in our group, she tells u what she honestly thinks, she tells us to finish up our lunch, she scolds me for being messy in labs....brings me back to the time wer my mum nags me to clean up my room...
Moving on to Karmun...Karmi is sweet, i dont think she wud like me saying it but she is sweet, at least among 6 of us. Unlike Panda, she actually foresees the effect of her speech first before actually saying it. So, if i need a consolation from a bad relationship, i'd go to her. There's actually once she found out i was feeling down just by chatting. She never shows that she cares, she never tells u that u can talk to her, she doesnt talk to u when she is down, she is a person with single expression with hundreds of faces on her mind. U can never guess, thats the reason i had to sit and think a while before start writing bout her. To put in poetic words, she is an ancient diary without a key. Karmi and i, we argue a lot. She disagrees, i disagree...and we argue. But again, its constructive discussion. Our argument can vary anywer from how mean i am to wich lecturer suck the most. She is like an angel with a hammer, kncking my head everytime im being mean. So, what wud i do without her? There's one more thing you should knw about her. She is a retarded, psychotic,mad and totally crazy. And since we hang out with her, people often think we are one of her kind(u know the nut case kind). Then, when u answer one of her questions, which is btw always lame, her first ever reply would be, "u sure o not?!!" and she says it in the most ridiculous way that it makes u doubt your own answers. She is good with cards, i mean good enuf la, well since i suck at it, she seems really good except when it comes to go fish, nah...that has to go..she created a game which looked and sounded like go fish but it is not.
Su Ann...One word-CRAZY!!!!! i am telling u, she is crazy---the best part, its contagious. u go mad just by being around her. She makes lame jokes, scary eyeball movements ( i mean really scary, if there is a malaysian version of Ju-on, she wud make the perfect match), she makes a very normal statement into the funniest thing to hear. She is helpful, when i need something urgent, she who ill run to. She boasts after that, but thats besides the point...lolz. Lets just put it this way, if im planning a holidays trip with my friends, her name wud be the first on the list...fun to be with, a great companion to laugh with and a hanky if u wna cry. A a perfect mixture of holiday material.She is one of the first person i saw at uni and we totally lost contact for bout one sem and she claims i ignored her. What wud i do without her? Oh i need to tell this, if su ann, panda and i are together, there is one place we shud not be in-LIBRARY. we will make so much of noise and we laugh so loud that we actually forget wer we are. My tummy will literally hurt after that, and ill be gasping for breath like an asthmatic patient.
Then there is Pauline...Awhhh, she is nice-really nice. Karmun and pauline are our source of transportation around. Her favourite tagline "i'm hungry" and she says that only wen we're in the lectures. See y i miss her wen we r on holidays. When she in a bad mood or this whole serious mood, it creeps me out. She has a way getting to me - to make me think if i did something wrong. She loves basketball...jogging...climbing mountains...very active, and someone who knws how to live her life. If i need to get over my ex, she is who i will go for advise. and then she'd probably ask me to get drunk but yeah-thats just one way. What wud i do without her? If Pauline doesnt like something i do, she doesnt always say it out like Panda but shows it instead. She is weight concious...she says she's hungry all the time but she knws the right amout of food to take and never a milligram more. I frankly think Ms.Pau here just reached the transition from child to adult. She has a way of bringing all the attention to her for a moment when she is telling a story. If we dont listen, she'll stop and scold us till we stop watever we r doing and listen to her ( heard of this somewer, yeap, we all use to do this when we were 6, some people have trouble growing out from chilhood). When she is excited, i think her impulse goes hay-wire...she'll start dancing, singing in her deep voice, hitting, move here and there, watever a small kid would do when you tell her she's getting an ice-cream. People may not be what they seem on the outside. Im telling u, do not judge a book by its cover...im telling this out of experience.
Now comes my favourite part...Piriya...I am telling u i have no idea what i wud do without her? I tease her all the time, her innocence are often our topic of discussion...When i say innocent, i am not talking bout love and sex...she is good at that, too good that i call her the porn star(not literally). She is unbelievably forgiving and sweet that she lets everyone use her and it gets into my nerves. Like duh ryte, she s my fren and if everyone uses her to get wat they want, it wud get to me ryte? As much as i tease and make fun of her, it stops there, i wudnt intentionally hurt her. If i need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to me, i wud ring her up....she may not knw the exact word to say but sometimes u just need someone to listen ryte? THATS HER!! She doesnt mind being puked on after a long day at bar, she doesnt mind being mocked at, she is the living being for the saying "forget and forgive". She's so skinny and small...pri-pri is not the girl u go for an honest opinion, nope...she will never say anything that wud hurt ur feelings. she is very particular bout pleasing everyone.

These are my friends...the 5 ppl i call my BBF (bitchy best friends). These are the ppl coloring my world with different colors. There maybe up and downs, tears and laughters, the road to an everlasting frenship is never straight, it has its curves, bumps, red lights, traffic polices, accidents but never a dead end. In a few years time, when we graduate with distinctions and merits, there will be a pang in my heart thinking bout how we will be separated by distance. We dont call each other every day, we dont ring up during holidays, we dont hang out 24/7, we dont hang in the phone for hours bitching bout our ex-es but we do share the most beautiful relationship in the world-FRIENDSHIP....
When i wake up every morning, i dont frawn to go to dull lectures knowing that i have this 5 ppl colouring my day. What wud i do without u guys?!!!! LOVE U GUYS....