They Keep Us Alive....

Sometimes, some friends are god-sent. They just know something is bothering you even if u put a fake smile on your face. They know that u need someone beside you even if u say u wanna be alone. They see you beyond the mask you wear, they see the real u, the inner face of who you really are and not who u are pretending to be. They are everywhere... Sometimes it gets so annoying and you shout at them, vent your anger at them...but they just dont leave coz' they know...that its then u need them the most.
They both laugh with and at you...They tease you every chance they get... They envy your success...They annoy you...Irritate you...Make you wanna bang on the wall and bleed to death...Make lame jokes that you feel like chocking on your own vomit and die...They are probably the one who starts off the rumour between you and the guy you hate the most... They mock you on every other thing you do...They critise on the things you think you are good at...The bitch about you in front of you...They say the meanest thing right on your face...Basically they are your best enemy...
Then..The smile with you...The lend a shoulder to lean on...They tutor you so that you dont screw up your exam so that you can graduate together...They hug you for no reason...The kick your ass until you reach the finish line...They sleep over...The listen to your crap about your ex...They give remarkably bitchy look to ur ex that he feel that he wants to die at the moment... They are always there to bitch about the person you dont like...They start a fight with the person they hardly know just because he/she hurt you...The come to your house make themselves at home without you asking...They dont judge you...They pick you up from the bus station at 4am even though they have not slept for 2 days... They are your best friends...

Whoever told you best friend have to be just one person...That you need to know that person for like 6 or 7 years before you actually call them your best friend...Best friends can be of any number, as long as you can trust on them to stand up for you against the world, they are your best friends...Best friends can be found anywhere, anytime...You just need like what a few days to see that. A person whom you just met 2 days ago may care for you more than the person whom you know for 10 years...People are sooo freaking unpredictable...So, dont judge friends by the time you know them, see them for who they are. Anyone...who makes you feel like you are worth it, anoyone who makes you feel like wanna fly at that moment, anyone who brings you back on the track after a great fall, anyone who makes you feel better...is your best friend...People say its hard to get a great friend...but whats harder is to keep that friend for a lifetime... Who my best friends are?? They my BBFs(Panda, Su Ann, Pauline, Karmy, Piriya)...They are my the people i met at the worse phase of my life, my college but they made it all better (Ham, Har, Ridz, Shamu, Louise, Charu), Or rather it be my high school friends, Or my primary school friends, Or my house mate, Or my childhood friend... Whoever makes me smile just by thinking of them during my toughest times...They are my best friends...

Anyway, i started off this blog to write about a particular person...Devi...whom i met like in the beginning of last year. Well yeah the first thing i thought bout her was that she was arogant and unfriendly but then like duh i was wrong...First impression is always wrong isnt? She is my person. She is someone i'd call if i need to hide a dead body. She is someone i can share without a single moment of hesitation. I cant believe it but i can just say anything to her, like anything..from my worse, embarrasing moment to my happiest, joyful moment...coz i know she wudnt judge me. U know, sometimes, you think twice to say something...But with Devs, its just so easy...so easy to be myself with. She just knows what to say...I can trust her to give me honest opinion...If im doing someting stupid, i can expect her to walk to me, slap me and say "Meks, u r being such a jackass"...When i need someone to shut up and listen, she is the one...If i need some words of wisdom, u know,something to boost my ego...she is so the one. SHE IS MY PERSON!!!!!

~BE THE FRIEND YOU WANT OTHERS TO BE~

A New Point of View...

There is a saying which says "You must emerge yourself into other worlds in order to understand yours". I mean i knew this before just never quite understood. Well, now i do. The thing is we all draw an imaginary line around us and think thats our world...Thats so not it. Im telling you this because i was that person too. So, be yourself, reveal the child in you, step out of this circle, dont need to grow that fast...There will be a point where you NEED to grow, just not now. Go out there, do the things u never thought u'd do...Embarass yourself, Scream your lungs out from a high building (i've done this and it feels good), Lie down on the road and count the stars, sing out aloud even though u suck(u sing coz u want too, u dont have to be good), dance all the time(who cares what the person next to u thinks,he doesnt have a life), slide in shopping malls, skate once in a while, play basketball ( u dont have to follow the rules), have a stay over and gossip bout the losers you fell for (if you arent with them at the moment, gosh he must be gay or just too ugly for u), eat ice cream at 1 am, get wet in the rain, go to the next room and irritate your sibling....do whatever you feel like at the moment...As you do all the crazy things, you tend to realise who you really are rather than who you are trying to be. You have a lifetime to pretend, hmmmm, to be yourself, just now when u r surrounded with crazy friends who wouldnt judge you.... So, go out there, and live at the moment as the next moment will remain unsure...

As for my day, it was superb...gets better and better. Well we had our Latin dance class, and whoa it was kinda fun. The way we go "cha cha" ignoring the beat and then stop and start again and then we miss the beat again, its all like so perfectly imperfect (ermm, perfect moment with imperfection). Have you ever realised how boring our life would be if everyone is perfect? For one, we'll have no one to laugh at...Secondly, we'll wake up everyday to compete for the first place...Thank god no one's perfect. I danced with Foo Pun and he was good...i mean of coz we screw up like all the time but since we messed up together, we ignored each other s mistake and it turned out to be good. Ohh, since there were only 4 guys, we kinda rotated our partners and of coz some girls have to be 'guys' and i danced with Karmy and Ad which was so kinda cool coz we get to do both guys and girls step...

We all have people we love and people we dont love so much(this is where your least fav people go). When something's bothering the people we love, it gets us...Well thats kinda normal. But what stroke me was when something disheartening happens to the people we dont exactly love, it gets us too and we somehow without us realising take a sec off to pray for their goodness. So, world isnt so crude, as humanity lies in each and all of us, just seen in times of sorrow only. We all care about everyone (the ones we love and hate), just not always i guess. Someone said "A lil' bit of humanity dies with every tear". I'm not buying it...coz everytime a person's eye tear, there is another pair of eye tearing feeling the pain of that person and very oftenly we cry for other people rather than for ourselves...

Yeap Polly, no more emo moment...Its gonna be either good day or not so good day as Su ann said...A new point of view....Wheeeee

Fall, Rise and Race

It has been a very emo-ish week for me...does that word even exist, well lets just pretend it does ok? But, life is a balance. Good and evil comes equally. Reminds me of what a friend told me, " difficulities does not come to destroy u, as it comes to show u your actual potential. Show difficulities that you are difficult". One of the best ways to let go of your emotion is by writing, so there i was writing everything which came to my mind at the moment. All the clouds of confusion, accumulation of rage, distraction, all the words i saved in my heart. We all have those days ryte? Our emo period!!! Some of my friends understands what they mean, for the rest, it shall remain as unsolved puzzle.

The best part of life is, we have someone to hold on during our rough days, someone to pull us out when we are stuck in quicksand. For He created 6 billion people and sometimes all we need is that one person who is willing to listen. We may have hundreds of them laughing as we're laughing, all we need sometimes is that one person who is willing to cry with us...that one person to hold your hands to move to morrow. We keep thinking about the people who left us, who walked away, who passed by without a single look, but often forget about those who stand right in front of us holding a box of tissue, a dvd and popcorn in case you need em'... "Dont you cry over people who became your past, there is a reason they did not make it to your present"

The reason why i am writing this is because we all have those days where we dont know where to go....what to do...who to talk...how to take the next step...when to move...not knowing which way to go next, don't be lost, don't stay down, you don't have to take a step backward...stand there and call a friend...True friends are seen in times of need. We all have them, just never used them enough to see them. Dreams may never come true until you have someone to share them with. Everyone needs a friend, a shoulder to lean on, hands to grip as we fall, and someone to raise us up when we do fall, as life is a case where you fall, rise and race....

No one’s ever perfect,
We all lie and act,
Mistakes are made to learn,
Difficulties don’t come to burn,
We all fall again and again,
Holding the scar and pain,
Until the rainy days are seen,
To the most beautiful day that have ever been….

We all have the day,
The day which kept us away,
From standing up after a hard fall,
But, we still have someone to call,
To raise us up, To empty the cup,
Wipe away the tear, To protect us from fear,
Getting us back into the race,
In the fastest ever pace,
Life never push us down,
Everyday, a new you is born….

The next time you are hurt,
Find the courage to become the first,
Coz’ life is a case,
Where you fall, rise and race…

-MK-

Fitting in...Standing out

"Looking into someone's eye,
Can you tell that they lie,
About who they are inside,
Are they dull or bright...

The mask we all wear,
The lies we all share,
It's all a huge mistake,
Putting truth on the stake...

Why pretend we're perfect,
When we know we are not,
To fit in we all put an act,
For its far better to stand out...

To get a friend,
We all bow and bend,
Not knowing who friends really are,
The ones who make you touch the star...

But we prefer the fake,
And we do whatever it take,
To get ourselves into the circle,
Just to laugh and giggle...

Not seeing who was really there,
Those who'd love and care,
The people we rank last,
When they should be the very first...

I made that mistake too,
Not knowing what to do,
I'm writing this now,
Coz' i owe a bow,
To the old friends i forgot,
To the people i've ignored,
The beautiful hearts i've burnt,
Coz' now i've learnt...
I've been rude and bitter,
But now i know better..."
I'm out of the game,
I wanna be who i really am...
-MK-

Colours of My Day!!!!

Hey,
Im totally new at blogging, always thot this was dumb but i promised a housemate of mine that i'll try it myself before i actually judge.So here i am....
To start things of, ill just start with my uni friends whom i call my best friends. I use to be so normal until i met these crazy ppl. Well, well what they say - same spesies stick together. The reason why im starting my blog particularly bout this 5 people is because they literally make my uni life a little tolerable. It takes a life-long experience in friendship before u cud actually judge them. So im no where close judging my frens, these are the little things i actually learned bout them in this short time knwing them.

Let me just start of with Amanda....
I officially christened her as "Panda bear"- this just popped out of my mind looking at her hairstyle somewhere last sem and she seemed to be accepting it pretty well so thats how it all started. One thing i truly love and hate about panda bear is she is brutally honest bout everything, to put it in easy words, she is a bad bad liar. So, if i need to knw what my bf is like or if my prom dress is nice or how is my new hair-do, this is the girl i will go to. Panda is very particular about tidiness, and a very organised person. Yea, i knw it annoys most of us sometimes but again what wud i do without her. She is always my partner in labs and im glad that she is. I can count on her not to screw things up, thats how careful she is. All the apparatus will be on line, books will all be stacked up nicely at the side bench, results will be written in the most neatest way possible-there will be no confusion at all. im telling u this because being me, i need someone like her to get me back into line. SHE KICKS ASS!!!! She is the mother in our group, she tells u what she honestly thinks, she tells us to finish up our lunch, she scolds me for being messy in labs....brings me back to the time wer my mum nags me to clean up my room...
Moving on to Karmun...Karmi is sweet, i dont think she wud like me saying it but she is sweet, at least among 6 of us. Unlike Panda, she actually foresees the effect of her speech first before actually saying it. So, if i need a consolation from a bad relationship, i'd go to her. There's actually once she found out i was feeling down just by chatting. She never shows that she cares, she never tells u that u can talk to her, she doesnt talk to u when she is down, she is a person with single expression with hundreds of faces on her mind. U can never guess, thats the reason i had to sit and think a while before start writing bout her. To put in poetic words, she is an ancient diary without a key. Karmi and i, we argue a lot. She disagrees, i disagree...and we argue. But again, its constructive discussion. Our argument can vary anywer from how mean i am to wich lecturer suck the most. She is like an angel with a hammer, kncking my head everytime im being mean. So, what wud i do without her? There's one more thing you should knw about her. She is a retarded, psychotic,mad and totally crazy. And since we hang out with her, people often think we are one of her kind(u know the nut case kind). Then, when u answer one of her questions, which is btw always lame, her first ever reply would be, "u sure o not?!!" and she says it in the most ridiculous way that it makes u doubt your own answers. She is good with cards, i mean good enuf la, well since i suck at it, she seems really good except when it comes to go fish, nah...that has to go..she created a game which looked and sounded like go fish but it is not.
Su Ann...One word-CRAZY!!!!! i am telling u, she is crazy---the best part, its contagious. u go mad just by being around her. She makes lame jokes, scary eyeball movements ( i mean really scary, if there is a malaysian version of Ju-on, she wud make the perfect match), she makes a very normal statement into the funniest thing to hear. She is helpful, when i need something urgent, she who ill run to. She boasts after that, but thats besides the point...lolz. Lets just put it this way, if im planning a holidays trip with my friends, her name wud be the first on the list...fun to be with, a great companion to laugh with and a hanky if u wna cry. A a perfect mixture of holiday material.She is one of the first person i saw at uni and we totally lost contact for bout one sem and she claims i ignored her. What wud i do without her? Oh i need to tell this, if su ann, panda and i are together, there is one place we shud not be in-LIBRARY. we will make so much of noise and we laugh so loud that we actually forget wer we are. My tummy will literally hurt after that, and ill be gasping for breath like an asthmatic patient.
Then there is Pauline...Awhhh, she is nice-really nice. Karmun and pauline are our source of transportation around. Her favourite tagline "i'm hungry" and she says that only wen we're in the lectures. See y i miss her wen we r on holidays. When she in a bad mood or this whole serious mood, it creeps me out. She has a way getting to me - to make me think if i did something wrong. She loves basketball...jogging...climbing mountains...very active, and someone who knws how to live her life. If i need to get over my ex, she is who i will go for advise. and then she'd probably ask me to get drunk but yeah-thats just one way. What wud i do without her? If Pauline doesnt like something i do, she doesnt always say it out like Panda but shows it instead. She is weight concious...she says she's hungry all the time but she knws the right amout of food to take and never a milligram more. I frankly think Ms.Pau here just reached the transition from child to adult. She has a way of bringing all the attention to her for a moment when she is telling a story. If we dont listen, she'll stop and scold us till we stop watever we r doing and listen to her ( heard of this somewer, yeap, we all use to do this when we were 6, some people have trouble growing out from chilhood). When she is excited, i think her impulse goes hay-wire...she'll start dancing, singing in her deep voice, hitting, move here and there, watever a small kid would do when you tell her she's getting an ice-cream. People may not be what they seem on the outside. Im telling u, do not judge a book by its cover...im telling this out of experience.
Now comes my favourite part...Piriya...I am telling u i have no idea what i wud do without her? I tease her all the time, her innocence are often our topic of discussion...When i say innocent, i am not talking bout love and sex...she is good at that, too good that i call her the porn star(not literally). She is unbelievably forgiving and sweet that she lets everyone use her and it gets into my nerves. Like duh ryte, she s my fren and if everyone uses her to get wat they want, it wud get to me ryte? As much as i tease and make fun of her, it stops there, i wudnt intentionally hurt her. If i need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to me, i wud ring her up....she may not knw the exact word to say but sometimes u just need someone to listen ryte? THATS HER!! She doesnt mind being puked on after a long day at bar, she doesnt mind being mocked at, she is the living being for the saying "forget and forgive". She's so skinny and small...pri-pri is not the girl u go for an honest opinion, nope...she will never say anything that wud hurt ur feelings. she is very particular bout pleasing everyone.

These are my friends...the 5 ppl i call my BBF (bitchy best friends). These are the ppl coloring my world with different colors. There maybe up and downs, tears and laughters, the road to an everlasting frenship is never straight, it has its curves, bumps, red lights, traffic polices, accidents but never a dead end. In a few years time, when we graduate with distinctions and merits, there will be a pang in my heart thinking bout how we will be separated by distance. We dont call each other every day, we dont ring up during holidays, we dont hang out 24/7, we dont hang in the phone for hours bitching bout our ex-es but we do share the most beautiful relationship in the world-FRIENDSHIP....
When i wake up every morning, i dont frawn to go to dull lectures knowing that i have this 5 ppl colouring my day. What wud i do without u guys?!!!! LOVE U GUYS....